50 First Kisses

I am watching 50 First Dates – again.

I’m not sure if it’s a spectrum thing or not, but like my son, Red, I have several movies that I can watch over and over.

The intrigue of 50 First Dates is that Lucy, the main character, has her short-term memory erased every night which sets ones mind to wondering...

I wonder, is it possible to erase the memories of my past relationships? Is it possible to have a first kiss and not remember the path of previous first kisses? I don’t want a whack to the head but that may be required for me to ever enjoy a first kiss.

A good friend wants me to go on a double date with her and I don’t even want to date.

I’ve effectively put off dating while completing my Master of Arts degree in Special Education.

School is a valid reason to stay out of the dating pool. Normal people, it seems want to date and have relationships. Am I just too hurt from past relationships or am I not normal?

Whatever.

There seems to be more of us avoiding the dating pool by choice. Frankly, I consider it a toxic cesspool. Probably because my memories haven’t been sprinkled with fairy dust. Maybe I could use a good dusting or a whack on the head.

Still, my favorite movies and books are romantic comedies.

I love to laugh and love.

What ever else, I am an ever hopeful romantic. So when I’m finished with my degree (yipee! 33 days!), maybe I’ll ease myself into the dating pool and try another first kiss or maybe more until I find the first kiss that does not bring back any memories at all.

That, my friend, is a true first kiss.